Lin Zhibai's parents divorced when he was a child and had little affection for him. He lived with his grandparents and they had an average relationship. Since childhood, Lin Zhibai was a child lacking love.
In his second year of high school, seventeen-year-old Lin Zhibai was forced to go to the countryside in place of his cousin. He had been weak since childhood and had to travel a long distance, so he fell ill with a high fever on the first day after arriving in Daohua Village. The only doctor in the village was away because he was visiting relatives, and it would take several hours to go to the town. Lin Zhibai's condition could not be delayed, and he might become a fool before he even reached the town.
Just then, Meng Xiangbei appeared, gave him some antipyretic pills, and saved Lin Zhibai's life.
While Lin Zhibai was in a daze from the fever, he memorized the name Meng Xiangbei in his mind.
Afterwards, the team leader assigned living areas to the educated youth, and Lin Zhibai happened to be assigned to Meng Xiangbei.
The villagers, who had long known that Meng Xiangbei was a bad-tempered second-rate person, advised Lin Zhibai to move to another family, but Lin Zhibai refused.
He thought that since someone could give such precious antipyretic medicine to a stranger like him under such circumstances, he must not be as bad as what others said.
In fact, the antipyretic drug was brought back by Meng Xiangbei when he went to a house in the town to steal. At that time, Western medicine was still a rare commodity and very valuable. He originally planned to sell it, but was afraid of being caught. So when he heard that an educated youth had a fever and the team leader was willing to exchange ten kilograms of grain for the antipyretic drug, he immediately gave it to the educated youth.
So, Lin Zhibai settled down with Meng Xiangbei, and the nightmare of his short life began.
Meng Xiangbei was 23 years old at that time. His grandparents and parents had all passed away. Fortunately, he was left with a lot of bills and money, but the house was too dilapidated.
Meng Xiangbei is good-looking and tall, at least 1.86 meters tall. Because he's lazy and doesn't work, his skin is whiter than that of a girl. He is also handsome, with thin lips, a high nose, and especially his eyes, which are deep and beautiful. He is used to disguising himself with a gentle temperament. When he smiles, he looked very gentle, which makes people feel very comfortable.
However, Meng Xiangbei's inner heart is completely different from his appearance.
To describe it in one word, it's "all show and no substance".
Logically speaking, Meng Xiangbei is good-looking and his family has "inheritance", so he should be able to marry a good wife, but he has not married for so many years.
Others don’t know the reason, only Meng Xiangbei himself knows the reason, it's because he doesn’t like women, only men.
After Lin Zhibai moved into his shabby house, Meng Xiangbei fell in love with Lin Zhibai. In addition, he knew that Lin Zhibai's grandparents would send him things every once in a while. In order to get Lin Zhibai and live off him, he began to plan to conquer the latter.
Seventeen-year-old Lin Zhibai had red lips, white teeth, and a fair complexion, especially his soft and slender waist, which was so thin that it seemed like it would break if pinched. Every time Meng Xiangbei saw him, his blood boiled.
In order to make Lin Zhibai willing to be with him, Meng Xiangbei, who has always been lazy, helped the thin Lin Zhibai with work, cooked for him, washed clothes for him, and took care of him when he was sick.
Coupled with Meng Xiangbei's handsome face and daily sweet words, Lin Zhibai, who already had a good impression of him because of saving his life, walked step by step into the gentle trap woven by Meng Xiangbei.
Lin Zhibai was willing to give his feelings and body to Meng Xiangbei. This subtly influenced Lin Zhibai, who had always been soft-hearted and lacked love, into developing the habit of regarding Meng Xiangbei as his heaven and relying on him.
It was also at that time that Meng Xiangbei's true nature was revealed. He was lazy and even used cold violence against Lin Zhibai. However, when he needed something, he would say sweet words to coax him and tricked him into bed.
In 1977, the college entrance examination was resumed. Lin Zhibai, who had always dreamed of becoming a teacher, was preparing to sign up for the college entrance examination. Meng Xiangbei was afraid that Lin Zhibai would pass the college entrance examination, go to the city and never come back.
So, when he ran into Lin Zhibai reading one day, he snatched Lin Zhibai's books and burned them. He also questioned Lin Zhibai whether he didn't love him. If he really loved him, he should stay in the village with him.
Faced with the choice between his dream and his lover, Lin Zhibai, who regarded Meng Xiangbei as the most important person in his life, watched his precious books being burned. That day, what was burned was not only the books, but also his dreams.
After learning that Lin Zhibai gave up the college entrance examination and would not return to the city, his grandparents also cut off contact with him.
After making sure that Lin Zhibai would not leave, Meng Xiangbei went even further and made Lin Zhibai willingly do heavy work and earn work points to feed two people. Meng Xiangbei, who had a strong desire, ignored Lin Zhibai's fatigue during the day and his weak body. He would basically take Lin Zhibai to bed every night and toss him around. He even treated Lin Zhibai as his property. After learning that Lin Zhibai was getting close to a male educated youth, he became furious and made Lin Zhibai swear that he would never have any contact with other men in the future.
This kind of lifestyle is undoubtedly pathological, but Lin Zhibai, who lacks love, has been silently enduring it in order not to lose Meng Xiangbei, and sometimes even thinks that this is a manifestation of Meng Xiangbei's care for him.
Until, news came from the village that the village chief's youngest daughter, who was rescued by Meng Xiangbei, fell in love with Meng Xiangbei and planned to marry him.
Meng Xiangbei saved Zhang Youyu by chance. He doesn't like women, so naturally he doesn't like Zhang Youyu either.
But the village chief's family is rich. Meng Xiangbei, who has spent all his "inheritance" in the past few years, has been relying on Lin Zhibai to work for food, but he's not satisfied.
He wanted Zhang Youyu's family's money and wanted to live a good life, but he couldn't bear to give up Lin Zhibai's body.
So, while he was flirting with Zhang Youyu and wanted to marry her, he was also persuading Lin Zhibai to continue their secret affair with him.
Thinking that Lin Zhibai would agree, but the person who had been listening to him for the past few years firmly denied it this time.
Lin Zhibai can't live without Meng Xiangbei, and doesn't want the latter to be with someone else. He doesn't expect them to be together openly, he just hopes that Meng Xiangbei can be loyal to him.
Between money, a good life, and Lin Zhibai, whom he had played with for several years, Meng Xiangbei resolutely chose the former. Fearing that Lin Zhibai would pester him, he directly reported Comrade Lin Zhibai.
In this era, homosexuals will be despised and disdained by others.
Lin Zhibai, who was not good at speaking, was speechless when faced with the malicious gazes and condemnations. He listened to others calling him disgusting and shameless, and even had things thrown at him when he went out.
But the person he loved was with another woman and didn't even look at him.
Abandoned by his lover, with no dreams, no family, no friends, Lin Zhibai collapsed in the face of malice from the whole world.
In that winter, he jumped into the river and committed suicide. Lin Zhibai was less than 21 years old that year. He was a young man in the prime of his life, but he withered like a flower at the best stage of his life.
Lin Zhibai's death did not have any impact on Meng Xiangbei. In the end, he not only became rich and powerful, but even when he was old, he still had affairs with several young boys.
After his death, Lin Zhibai came to the underworld. He did not take the bowl of Meng Po soup that would allow him to enter reincarnation. Instead, he was willing to sacrifice his soul and begged the Nightmare Beast to weave a dream for him so that he could feel truly loved.
Thus, the nightmare beast Meng Xiangbei came forth.
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